Saturday’s concert went well, I thought. The audience was quite small, mostly due rather rainy and unfriendly weather in the morning.
Playing in that particular space was interesting: I found the piano very loud and could hardly hear Anna on the violin but apparently three feet away the balance was good. I think we played reasonably well: not everything was technically perfect, but that isn’t a realistic expectation at this point. Not everything was musically perfect either, but there were definitely some good moments. The audience was appreciative and this is always a welcome thing.
So far this week has been going a bit slowly. I had quite a tiring week last week: in addition to preparing for Saturday’s performance I was dealing with broken glasses, a broken horn (nothing major: the pinky hook came unsoldered), and feeling generally quite tired. I managed to pick up a cold from somewhere and it has gone straight to my ears of all places so I’m not feeling amazing.
That said, I’ve been getting some good work done. Monday was understandably slow and I really had to push myself to get out of the flat in the morning at all, but the teaching component of it went well and by the end of the day I was feeling much better. Coming home to find out some of the repertoire I’m being asked to play at Charterhouse was certainly a highlight.
Tuesday I managed my distractabrain a bit better: I got somewhat ambushed by piano parts for various bits of chamber music, but this is no bad thing as having a high level of familiarity with these is only ever going to be an advantage. In total I practised for six hours. I also took various parts out of the library and attended a concert at the Old Royal Naval College Chapel in the evening.
Repertoire! I had just started to get to a point where I was feeling a bit stuck, a bit aimless in my practising… I really needed either a lesson (next one is scheduled for 18th July so still a little way off) or some intermediate goals to work on. There’s nothing like being told, “Hey, come play this in two weeks” to get things started. It looks like the programme will be as follows:
Hindemith Kleine Kammermusik for wind quintet
Mozart Quintet for Piano and Winds
Reinecke Trio for piano, oboe and horn in A minor, opus 188
Ligeti Six Bagatelles for Wind Quintet
The Hindemith I don’t know well but I do have a recording of it; I’ve played the Mozart before though it was a few years ago. I know neither of those will be problematic, and roughly how much work I’ll have to put in. I’ve actually been working on the Reinecke this year anyway, though in the end we didn’t get past the first rehearsal due to schedule conflicts.
The Ligeti was an unknown to me, before yesterday. I was worried at first, because I don’t always “get” Ligeti: some of what he writes I find deeply moving and beautiful, and some of it I guess I’m just not ready for yet. I’m not guaranteed, as I am with Bach or Mozart or Brahms, an instant idea of what to do with the music. Oh, Bach and Brahms and Mozart all require study for me to perform them effectively and really understand them, but I have a good grounding in the harmonic language used, so I always know where to start. Some more modern works simply leave me baffled.
This is actually quite important. For me, performance (and teaching to an extent but that’s a different discussion) isn’t about technical prowess so much as communicating to other people my ideas of what is good about a work. It’s a sort of show-and-tell, where I have an opportunity to get up and, through playing, say,
“Listen to this! Isn’t that bit neat? Isn’t it amazing how sad these sounds can make you feel? Isn’t the rhythm there fascinating, aren’t those harmonies beautiful? Shiny! I love it! I hope you do, too!”
That’s an amazing gift, a wonderful opportunity, and I can’t do it if I don’t love or at least like the piece I’m playing. I will never be able to use technical accomplishment to dazzle a listener into loving a piece of music, and even if I could, I’m not sure I’d want to. That doesn’t mean that the technical aspect of musicianship isn’t important: to communicate my ideas clearly requires physical preparation, to be fluent in the language of music requires a high level of proficiency and further refinements in that are always going to be possible. Getting down to the nitty-gritty, though, understanding and liking the music and being in a frame of mind to pass that on are absolutely essential.
I was pleased, then, to discover that the Ligeti Bagatelles are an instant match. Why did I not know of these before? They are gorgeous: playful lyrical by turns, rhythmical without detracting from some truly beautiful harmonies. It will be an honour to perform them, and I hope I can do them justice.